If some higher power had of sat down with me in my infancy and communicated to me as to what my future would be like so far and showed it to me on video, I would not have been too impressed. I certainly wouldn't want a repeat of it now. In fact, given the choice I would have said, "No thank you," to life.

I'm guessing many would have thought the same. And if our wish to die was granted there wouldn’t be too many folk living as I type.

The instinct to survive is a powerful one indeed. I am not sure where it is located in brain or what colour it is. She must be the orchestrator of all brains activity; the all seeing and knowing of what's going on with me at all times in body function including thought and emotion.


What is it then when emotion can cease that 'instinct' to survive?


There must be some kind of ' cease to exist mechanism' that can be switched on at birth. It is triggered when an infant feels threatened by feelings of hunger, heat, cold, pain, lack of love etc, and reacts to those feelings by crying, and feeling enraged. Infants have no concept of survival. At birth they have an ingrain fear of falling ( from trees?) and a cease to exist mechanism for survival.

As an adult we respond with the flight or fight mechanism when threatened, just as an infant does.

The CTEM ( cease to exist mechanism) causes bubs to feel emotions such as fear, and rage. It is switched off once her needs are met, and she no longer feels threatened.

If bubs need for both love and nurturing is not met on a consistent basis she will be in a constant state of stress. When there is a need for bubbies emotions to be repressed that state of mind can cause infantile depression. Infantile depression are feelings of isolation, sadness, hopelessness, and helplessness that can lead to bubbies demise.


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