hello im new here

ive had a constant string of therapists since 13 (im now 15)
and lately ive been talking to a therapist about some of my issues, and another about some serious things in my life through email because hes too far from me

and the first one, she just stopped talking to me, entirely, ive waited a month, ive tried contacting her, ive emailed her,
after 2 months, she just stopped,

the other one, he said
"don't worry, i wont betray your trust"
he said hed email me every week on a specific day
and for the past 7 weeks, its been great, my life was improving and i was getting my confidence back

but hes just stopped entirely too, he wont reply to me anymore

and its causing me a lot of problems, they both knew i have trust issues, they both know im a very fragile person and they both know im constantly suicidal

i don't know if i can trust any one any more,

what do i do?

i told them everything about me,

thanks