Hi Caeti723, and welcome to the forum! Well, it may seem immature, but I liked reading about how you expressed your anger to your T. One of these days I am going to talk myself into having a tantrum in front of my T. It would feel good (at least in the moment) to have that release. But like you, I would then have the obese butterflies afterward, so not sure if it would be worth it. I suppose we are supposed to get to the point where we can express our feelings honestly and respectfully at the same time. But if we could always do that then we might not need therapy, right?

Great point, Mad Hatter, and I feel my T understands this quite well...

Hi Caeti!

Welcome and thanks for posting about this situation with your T - I sometimes have that experience of thinking over what I've said in a session and it seems kinda aggressive afterwards. I love my T because she doesn't get ruffled when I react strongly - I think she just wants me to respond in the moment and then she gives me her response - ordinarily I would clamp down and only show someone the 'nice'. So I totally get the kind of mischievous pleasure you might have got from being able to act out with your door slam - it's very expressive!!

Did you get to ask for clarity in your session after this post? How did it go?

By the way, I love the 'obese butterflies' image...

J

I've had temper tantrums with my T recently -- not terribly attractive for someone of my advanced age! But he immediately (well, next session, since I stormed out and slammed the door, too!!!!) pointed out the transference and counter-transference. Me getting mad like I was getting angry with "x" person in my past and him reacting to me as if to "y"'s anger in his past. He was a little ruffled and I was embarrassed, but we worked our way through it, I think. He does make me mad, but in a good way - if that makes sense - and lets me react how I need to.

Thanks for sharing your door-slamming incident!

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