May I ask what you make of that???

S

I suppose that means that i'm comfortable enough with people who post here...

Scott

Well that is reallllll kewlllllllllllll!

S

Omg Dude.. that's so true... I didn't even know your name for the longest time... In fact, I rememeber one of the little ones kinda laughing at me calling you 'Dude" lol... Maybe it's you showing that you want to be 'seen' more.. as you!

Why is it that I don't hear from you all on IM anyways?

I'm usually on IM on invisible... any time you want to chat buzz me/us

Scott

well i have a lovely habbit of when ppl dont talk to me, i just take them off my IM so thats what I did because I figured no one was interestred in talking so i deleted... lol.... I just do that because I dont like to have my IM box cluttered with peoples names who dont want to chat. Especialy when I feel like I make the effort to talk to them and than nothing so its like okay... oh well.. shrugs... lol

Izzie

Hope this doesn't mean I offended you!
Scott

no, i didn't know anyone long enough to feel offended really..... see i have another friend from the email group who i knew quite well.. or thought I did... and who I supposedly meant a lot to them and their system and than they just dissapeared on me like i didnt matter for months and than suddenly show up and talk to me like nothing ever happened and when i confronted them... it was like an excuse.. like oh well 'this' happened.... like.. no personal responsibility or anything and being that I have issues with abandonment that they are aware of esp as abuse 'survivors' themselves... this really pissed me off beyond belief so I decided to just quit all contact with them including leaving the group because verytime i saw a post by them i got mad again... lolol

but with most people.. if I talk to them and than they don't really take inititative to talk to me than i just figure oh well and delete them.. thats how I felt sorta with you all like we had some nice chats a little well me and some of the others a little but than i felt like i was making most of the contact and that it wasn't all that reciprocal and thought well maybe it just takes time but again I just dont deal with it so unless I know there is a particular reason like I have one friend with DID whose system has a very difficult time IMing someone first but they let me know it is an emotional problem for them so with them, I know that when I get an IM from them first, it's like a real treat because it takes loads of effort but they made me aware of the issue early so that I would know and it makes sense...

If anyone wants to still pursue talking more with me .. getting to know one another better, it is welcome but you would have to add me or send me a IM cause i dont know yours anylonger... lol... but if you don't, I won't feel offended...

when i get really depressed, I think my level of relationship sensitivity goes into overdrive.... I don't always respond to it but some responses have served to be self protective and helpful....

Izzie

I understand... and you know, we have so many on IM, and half I don't really know who they are any more LOL

Robin