Nerves...Help me calm down.

unbrokenMember

Hi All,

This morning I had a session with T, and we talked about something that I had done at 18 that I had never shared with anyone else. It was something that I completely felt guilty about, and felt ashamed telling her. I know she is there to not react and not judge, but I can't help from feeling scared and emotionally naked. I feel like now that she knows the "real" me that she's gonna turn her back on me and give up helping me. She saw this awful side of me that did this shameful thing and what if she thinks differently about me? What if deep down inside she hates me? She's disgusted by me?

I feel so sad, scared.

I did tell her also that I wanted her to be there for me. She said that people will be there for me but not in the way that I want.

I HATE THERAPY!

8/8/1112:20 PM

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unbrokenMember

Update:

I just called T. We had a little chat about things, and she reassured me that she doesn't think differently of me. She is not her to judge me, and all she wants is a full picture of who I am so she can best help me.

It did make me feel a little better, but I still am in that longing for more stage where I totally want her to scoop me up into her arms and make everything okay. It only seems fair!