It is possible. I have had periods of time where I was in recovery for years at a time. I am currently back in the full throttles of my ED, however. But I think back to those times when I was free from it...and I remind myself that I can get there again.

You comment about "Wanting to obsess and eat" makes me think of something my T asked me once. She asked, "Do you like your eating disorder?" and I was surprised by that question, but even more surprised by my answer. Yes. It's the only thing I can control. It's always there for me when I need it. It sounds as though you feel similarly.

Perhaps we need to take a step back and examine the things that we do not like about our eating disorder...the ways in which it holds us back, the damage it does to our bodies, etc. Until we can stop liking it and start hating it, we cannot free ourselves from it.

Hi LG thanks for answering, yes it is there when I need it and yes I can control it. But it is also controlling me, I have type 2 diabetes and the meds I am on are making it very much out of control and eating chocolate doesn't help at all. I don't know how to stop liking it and start hating it.

Hi DF I guess I knew it was going to be tough and that is why I have spent my whole life doing it. I am terrified of the emotions that are going to come up but I know I have to do it to get better. Thanks for answering.

Halo