I was trying to think about how I felt toward my T, and ended up illustrating Proust's Swann's Way. Also... I needed a "cover story" for my picture, as I was not willing to tell that it was about therapy, so... there is this influence. And I don't think it is actually a bad take on the question.
I wanted to have T in the middle of an entanglement of patterns of life, which are painful.
I wanted to have my fear of her going away, because time makes people go away, I'll have to leave + it only 1 hour a week, our whole relationship is trapped in it.
I wanted to have a at the center of the piece, because she plays such an important role. And This role means I would want to keep her from going away, so she is trapped in the entanglement. Does it hurt her?
Also, I worship her a bit. She is the light against a very dark background. But at the same time, I know that this kind of attachment is a fixed pattern for me, so really, it could be someone else, she has no face, I don't actually know her, only her kind caring therapist's face.
So, I just wanted to share it with you, in case you could recognize features of your own relationship, or on the contrary, not at all.
But.... I feel that the resulting piece is very creepy, and it scares me. Am I a monster?
Bonus option/question: mmmm, showing it to T? but.. I am afraid it freaks her out.