I did something like many of us do , we check online about our T or their family members, hidden truth but I think many of us do that anyway, I am one of them and DO I wish I did NOT, so I did see on my T partner XXXpace that she is going abroad for about 1 year well my T has not said anything about that , we meet last time in end of June we meet 1 week, and I did ask him just before the holiday if we should try DAM for ptsd and he said sure in the winter,

and I did see him last week shopping and there I mention that I was trying to get his sessions outside if the clinic paid and he said ok , and did not mention anything he was leaving for some time, my next session in next Friday , I off course will not say anything BUT BUT I am going crazy here , we have discussed how important this T is for me and he is also important for me, and I have just told him he is like the parent I never had and he has been there for me for some time , T is the first person I connect to ,
and I have really not any support around me no family and few friends , I am so scarred he is going somewhere for 1 year or longer, then now I am just like why I am making “connection” to someone and I will loose that ,

I feel this is too hard, Its now holiday and I am not doing well , what then for 1 year ,, I feel like I can’t wait for 1 week to see my T , what if he tells me he is going away, So very very lost ..