You might know that I have really been struggling with a potential really long (5 weeks) break from seeing T due to her vacation and then my vacation. Due to a plethora of reasons, I cancelled my vacation, and now have my regular schedule with my T through the summer, except for her travel (2 times she'll be away for a week, 1 time she'll be away for 4 days.)
Anyway, I finally got up the nerve to tell her how anxious I was about being apart during those long breaks while she's away. I bawled my eyes out while I confessed how anxious I was, and how afraid I was to tell her how I was feeling cause I didn't being so attached to her. She was incredibly supportive, beyond what I could have even imagined. SHE came up with the idea of giving me something from her office to hold on to while she was away. SHE normalized my attachment, accepted it, was open to hearing my thoughts on it, then praised me for being so honest and open.
Though I cried, once again, for nearly 45 minutes straight, she never once wavered, was so caring and supportive, and now I am holding on to something from her desk... I feel very warm and fuzzy
I lucked out in finding this T, she is the first T I have worked with that holds the boundaries so incredibly solid, I know what is allowed and what she doesn't allow. It's like she's created this incredible safety zone in her office, and each time I run up against something scary, the boundaries created make it ok for me to bring it up with her. Though it is really hard to do, the more I've brought small small things up and she's handled them so solidly, the more comfortable I am getting in preparing to bring some of the bigger stuff up.I LOVE my T. But the best part is that I love her AS my T, and while a part of me does wish she could be my mom, I know (as I learned from someone here) if that was the case, than our T relationship would not be the way it is, so I'm quite content and grateful to have her in my life as my T.
