My T is away and I saw T2 yesterday (I see her very rarely, very, very rarely).

We did somatic work and some of it was attachment based. Ending that work is very slow, with us not abruptly moving on. Even when we don't work on that... I've had this problem all year.

I feel so calm after session. Later intense feelings out of nowhere will come. Urges to cause pain to myself, almost compulsively. I can overcome them most of the time.

I just don't know a thought to connect it to? Not having T1 here is compounding that anxiety and it is still palpable this morning.

I think it's a trigger? Maybe feeling too intense about how long the separation with T2 will be?