..and still no preconceived ideas about what will be said.


S, the school teacher has his session before mine, and is usually a wee bit late. That gives me time to re connect with the bush out there; its smells, sights and sounds ease my mind. The gorge is so beautiful, and peaceful. It always reminds me of the feelings I had while visiting grandma when I was a child. In those days, I used to bring home a momentum from those visits to remind myself of what harmony felt like before re-entering the tension within that family. I took home a leaf, a stone, or a twig, and hid it in places no one could find. It was my "safe keep" of good feelings.


I have to stop myself from doing the same thing after leaving a session when I am reminded of those exact same feelings of harmony. Hypno has a reoccurring theme that allows me to destroy all the threats in my childhood, my demons, my family.


Not so long ago, post session feelings would last almost a week before more angst surfaced, but now a days those feelings emerge again within an hour, or so. Driving home, my gut starts to tighten up with angst as I try and blow off "steam" to relax it. I find myself wanting to turn the car around for a repeat session, anything to ease the angst within. By the time I get home those feelings settle somewhat to a tolerable level. I suspect brain knows it is safer to feel angst post session more so than in session. I shall speak firmly to her!


He wanted to keep it flowing, who am I to disappoint Sir?