Hi CT, nice to meet you- dont think we "met"

I dont have much time now, just wantet to let you know your`re not crazy or anything like that at all. I`m not having trauma- experiences - nor a vilant history- but i dont find it weird at all that you find this shows somehow triggering or even enjoy them. I just take a guess here, but i thinnk it`s about some kind of katharsis, you know? It`s a fenomen ehere the victim (or whatever) feels a huge relief being the obejctive watcher. I dont find the right words here, i think i am tryin to explain the dynamics that victims of traumas or violence often seems to feel some kind of attractions to the same brutality that they once self was hurted/damaged by. To sit and watch shows like that from a safe distance, gives perhaps some kind of controll-feeling, and a "primitiv" katharsis-(=healing feeling) reaction- (katharsis is a famous psychologyial(?) fenomen that ascribes from the the greek-tragedy theatres, as the audience gets this satisfaction by watching the hero in the play bein destroyed or in pain and greef.) So, you see its quite normal and just simply A very human reaction. People seem to tend to "like" other peoples pain in a way.

Ok, i have to run. This was rambling, but i hoped it helped somehow.
All the best CT

You are not crazy at all! Those are the main type of shows I watch and I was abused a lot. Those shows and any shows that have therapists or psychiatrists in them are my interests especially when the patient shows signs of transference!