I finally deleted oldT's phone messages - the good ones and the bad ones. Doing that felt like progress.
-RT
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((((RT)))) I am proud of you. I wasn't around here yet when you were with oldT, only know what you've told me about it, and I feel like that is progress to delete them.
I remember the day I deleted my oldT's voicemails, I initially thought it would kill me to let them go, but once I did it was like a weight was lifted and I felt much more free to go toward better things. I'm glad I didn't do it sooner than I was ready, but also glad I didn't keep torturing myself either. I think you just get a feeling when you're ready, and having a supportive new T makes a huge difference.
Did you have mixed feelings about deleting/ how are you feeling now?
I remember the day I deleted my oldT's voicemails, I initially thought it would kill me to let them go, but once I did it was like a weight was lifted and I felt much more free to go toward better things. I'm glad I didn't do it sooner than I was ready, but also glad I didn't keep torturing myself either. I think you just get a feeling when you're ready, and having a supportive new T makes a huge difference.
Did you have mixed feelings about deleting/ how are you feeling now?
Given the night and day difference between oldT and newT, I am getting a lot of perspective on the situation with oldT. I'm letting go of the need to hold on to that attachment. I think maybe the pain and conflict still had hold of me as an unresolved interaction. But in reality, I'm not interacting with her, and I need to let go of it.
-RT
-RT
Reading that is really inspiring and gives me motivation to keep going forward too. I'm glad you shared it 
(((RT)))
Wow. Amazing and inspirational.
Wow. Amazing and inspirational.
((((RT)))) i think that is really awesome! i think it's good you waited until you were ready, on your terms! while there may be pangs in association with that relationship, i do hope you feel the freedom and the weight off that i read in your post. good on you!
Wow! RT that's awesome! I admire your courage!
I'm still doing the holding on thing. I have one of former T's voicemails that I listen to when I need to feel that connection or when I feel anxious/stressed out. I haven't had the guts to delete it. It's been a year and five months since I've had a session with her and I still struggle with missing her everyday. My current T told me I had the choice to close that door and end the relationship in my head and heart. With everything going on in my life right now, that seems too painful to do. Even when I took my midterm exam this week I mentioned former T (T training school)!!! In the extra credit section I discussed former T because it had to do with my career path.
So....Way to go, RT!! That is progress and I'm proud of you!
I'm still doing the holding on thing. I have one of former T's voicemails that I listen to when I need to feel that connection or when I feel anxious/stressed out. I haven't had the guts to delete it. It's been a year and five months since I've had a session with her and I still struggle with missing her everyday. My current T told me I had the choice to close that door and end the relationship in my head and heart. With everything going on in my life right now, that seems too painful to do. Even when I took my midterm exam this week I mentioned former T (T training school)!!! In the extra credit section I discussed former T because it had to do with my career path.
So....Way to go, RT!! That is progress and I'm proud of you!