Cat: thanks ,
I just want so badly to call, and ask for session, but I also trying to be "adult" and show I trust him, but my child inside is scared he forgets ,,, Just pain, I said yo him when I bump in him last week "I hope you don´t forget " he said no I wont ,, Why is my "child" so afraid ...

Hello dear people ..

Thanks for your replies , “trust if you can that you are important and let him prove it“ this is exactly what I am trying to think and do , it’s just so crazy because he has many times been there when I need him, but I have to remember he is also human, with faults and that, I just hate to feel like this , and I am just so tired of that,

I have showed him I do trust him and I feel like its secure connection between us, BUT the little girl in me is always afraid and it just hurts . I am going to try to hang in there, but I am just sometimes wonder if this is all worth it..

Hi Anna,
I understand your feelings so well. I have just 4 days left of a 6 weeks break from T due to her having a baby. She contacted me a couple of weeks ago and suggested we start again this Sunday. For some reason I have been tempted all day today to e-mail her and check that it is still ok. I understand that with a 4 week old baby it is possible that she is very tired and may not feel mentally able to do her job yet, but I also know she will have thought about it carefully and if she had decided that it was too early, she would have contacted me by now and delayed her return.
So why am I sitting here at the computor wanting to write to her to check.
I also need to take note of Draggers comment to trust T.
Having said that, if it is making you anxious, I am sure T would prefer you to contact him and then be able to relax.

Hello dear people
Thanks for your support, so I did call the clinic and he is not working until next week , so I sent him e-mail on Friday, and he did reply straight away, I said what about a session and I was just also make a contact . So I see him next week, thank all