On the way there I told thought to shut up. I didn't want to think of anything that would distract me in session.

I predicted Steven would be on time today due to his explosive session last Saturday. It takes time to build up anger for the next 'explosion' of emotion.

My session was full of me putting this therapy into perspective, and in that way I felt I was distracting from emotion. Less angst in store equals more understanding.

Hypno had me physically fighting and entangled with Ma,( where my dream had ended.)

I went ahead with the 'click' required to end her life. I imagined disposing of her in flames until only the shadow of Ma remained. Another ash shadow appeared along side her then, that of my father. In my way of thinking, father would not survive if Ma were taken from him.

I seemed to be pulled into their ash shadow, and found it difficult to breath for a moment or two. And then I became more aware of the safety of the chair and me in it.

I told T there was a sense of power and control after the parents were disposed of. That there was no sense of being threatened by them again. He asked me if I felt more in control of my life these days. Yes Sir, I do.

A part from feeling the room temperature had gone up a few degrees under hypno, there was no real feelings of anger or rage. I told T It was disappointing, and that I felt little effect from the whole session, including hypno.


"There has to be some kind of ending to the amount of rage put there by others."...T


It feels right.

http://youtu.be/ccCnL8hArW8