So yesterday's session was emotional to say the least and I could feel the tears. I hate crying in front of other people especially T. There was too much time in the session left. I looked away, I felt myself getting red, I gritted my teeth. I couldn't talk, he let it go on for a few minutes(seemed like forever). Then he gently asked me, what I was thinking (he knew I was trying not to cry).

It took a minute but I burst. You see I have a lot going on and I also am having trouble getting rid of an abusive roommate (Its my apartment). I am feeling intense shame from crying in front of him. Allowing them. Maybe wanting him to see. I'm angry at him for letting me cry, he could have stopped me. Ive already called him..I lasted months without crying, maybe a little voice cracking but no tears...