I know this topic was posted months ago, but I saw it and wanted to add my comments.
I can totally understand where you are coming from Seablue. You know what I daydream about sometimes... Winning the lottery and having this huge house where one area is dedicated to my T for her office, living space, whatever she needs. And in the daydream, I am her only client because I can totally afford it with those lottery winnings, right?
She is there for me almost 24/7 and I don't even need to make an appointment; I just buzz her on the intercom before I go to the office. And to make sure she doesn't get bored (not that I'm not exciting or fulfilling enough) she does some volunteer therapy work, goes to conferences, has lunch with colleagues.
Oh, and the house is on a private beach and we have (untimed) sessions outside on the deck's porch swing with the breeze blowing in and the sun setting and the goldendoodle we picked out together, sleeps on the swing next to us. *content sigh*
Oh well...Ha! I'm quite the daydreamer as you can see.
But a few times I have been disturbed. Once I actually heard a girl crying while I was in the waiting room. And it almost made me cry to know that my T was comforting someone else. Another time, I went in and the couch cushion was still visibly sunk in from where the last person sat and I refused to sit there. And one time, another client actually came back to the door because she had forgotten something. THAT was awful. My session had not officially started completely, but I always am careful to never leave anything behind so that I don't have to go back. I was so mad at this woman, whoever she was.
I am also striving to look and smell nice. Once, my T told me that I dressed nice and took care of myself and that it was a good sign. I thought, "shoot, I'm really only doing this for her, so I wonder how good a sign it is?". Another time, I went in and the office smelled heavily of air freshener. When I commented on it, my T revealed that the last client smelled and so she was trying to air it out quickly. And I have been PARANOID about my smell ever since! Most days I try to shower right before going there, but I have some appointments that are right after work. So then I try really hard to freshen up. I even carry a bar of soap in my purse (sigh, I know it's crazy, but I don't want to be a smelly patient to her, ACK!) I know I shouldn't be paranoid but even though she accepting of weird smells doesn't mean she's inhuman to them. She can still smell after all.
I also find myself mad when sessions go over or don't have an adequate break in between them. For this reason, I like to have the last session of the day. Also, so that if the person before me went over, I don't have to feel like my session will be cut short so that the next person's will be on time. And I like the thought of being her last for the day, as if she will think of me more like on her drive home or something. But in the beginning she said sessions were 50 minutes. But every time we go the whole hour right up until the minute! And if I end early (at 50) she seems a bit reluctant.
Her office is set up with 2 doors so we go in one and out the other so I don't have to see the others, but I hate knowing that she's just ushered one person out the door (maybe pauses to take a breathe) then opens the other door for me.
Also she sometimes does not remember things well unless I remind her with specifics. I suppose she has to remember a LOT of stuff from everyone. That's hard because it really ruins the illusion that she thinks only of me all day everyday