Between my vacation and my T's summer schedule, we'll only have two sessions over the next 12 weeks. Currently, I see him 2x/week, sometimes 3x.

My kids' T will be my back-up in case of an emergency, but my kids' T made it clear he doesn't think it's a good idea for me to see him if it's more than an emergency because he doesn't want it to interfere with my kids treatment. I agree.

My T doesn't think I need a back-up. He thinks I'll be fine. My T will NOT be available via text and email over the summer like he normally is. (I don't contact him in between sessions even though he allows it because its too painful to wait for a response)

I don't know if I should look for a temp T for the next 10-12 weeks or if I should see how I do and try to manage without a T for the summer. I would like to get a back-up T to see every week, but just the thought feels like so much work.

Can anything productive be done without a solid relationship? Can I establish trust with a new T in a few weeks? Took me almost a year to trust my current T. I feel like the only thing I'll want to talk about is how much pain I'll be in from the separation anxiety.

Any thoughts?