If I were there I would give you a big hug.
I know about feeling misunderstood because your feelings are intense. What time is is there? Are you gonna be okay lying in bed? I know I do that too sometimes when I am feeling bad. Just so it doesn't make things worse for you.
I can see where it would be sad to leave a house even if you haven't lived in it for 3 years. The places we live always hold memories.