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I had an official rupture with T last week over something that happened last fall. We had talked about this issue (his failure to return calls from T and Pdoc in hospital) in the past, but he wasn't really sorry, thought it was unimportant. But it was important to me, and undermining our alliance. Finally last week he understood, and was truly sorry. In our next session, I was able to talk about an important transference issue that is super painful.

I told both my parents about parts of it today. Dad said "so you wasted last week bothering your T about something that happened so long ago and didn't even matter. That's what all this money for therapy is being spent on."

I guess if dad thought that the things that bother me were important, I might not need this therapy. He pays for it but he might cut it off. Then what? I finally see how everything went so wrong in my life but I can't fix it by myself.
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(((peanut))) i don't think you're "stupid". not one bit. you were hoping to explain something that is important to you (it doesn't matter when it happened ... if it's still bothering you enough that you bring it up now, then obviously it was important and is STILL important), so please don't berate yourself for this. it IS important and needs to be dealt with. peanut, it wasn't a waste to bring it up ... it was brave of you to bring it up. your dad is in denial and minimizing what you went through and the impact it had on you. maybe he's even trying to make himself feel better about it, but meanwhile he's making you feel worse about it.

i'm like TAS. i have told one other person about therapy stuff once, but that was enough. she made me feel like i was living in the past and totally minimized my feelings. i'll never make that mistake again.

meanwhile, peanut, if there's stuff in your past that is bothering you, then it IS affecting your present and for you to heal it is necessary for you to revisit it, and it's not a waste of money nor a waste of time. keep going, and please talk to your T about the exchange with your dad.

good luck, peanut. please keep coming here for support.
(((TAS))) and (((CD))) -thank you. I've heard lots of people here say they don't/can't/have had a really bad experience re: talking to others about something that happened in therapy. I guess it just isn't safe. I was really excited, I really wanted to talk about it. It was a huge relief, T said he felt completely humbled that he had done what he had, then hadn't even realized that it was a big deal. This is a good place. We can talk about it without being minimized. Thank you again.

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