I'm sorry Yaku, I feel your pain, but I don't havealot of advice on this... can you write down in your journal what you texted this week? or spend some time trying to think about it and putting it on paper? i find that unless i write stuff down now, I'm toast!

((((((YAKU))))))))

Thanks. It seems like you understand me, but also, all these things have been at least written to T and some of them (like my wanting the coffee table out of there) have been said in sessions. I don't specifically ASK for it, but I express that I don't want it between us, but since he doesn't respond to it, I just assume I can't move it. Today is a phone session, so probably we won't discuss that sort of stuff. Better done when we are actually together. I have told my lovely T over and over that I don't feel like I can connect without him with me, but I think he is right to be cautious with his approach. What I don't understand is why (I'm making an assumption here based on him saying there is some stuff we're "not ready to talk about" last phone session) he doesn't want to talk about these things. My assumption is that the reason is because the answer is "no" to many of my needs and he knows it might be too painful for me to hear "no" right now. I know, I know...an awful lot of assumptions there. Thanks, Monte. You did really help me think through the kind of things I need to say. I guess I just really need T's help to say them. Like, if he could somehow ask me little bits of information at a time, maybe I wouldn't be flooded with these concepts that feel too big to communicate to him. That is one area my T fails at, which my pastor is really good at, which is just asking for a little bit, a small specific question, because that's all I'm capable of answering verbally...

((((YAKU)))))

Wondering how your phone session went, if it was okay. I know that feeling of desperately wanting to connect but yet feeling disconnected and how painful and isolating it can be.

Liese

Sorry, yeah, posted it in another thread. Phone session went OK.