About 20 years ago I saw a psychiatrist for therapy over about 5 years. She saved my life - literally and figuratively. She saw me from single and hopeless, to married, through infertility, and having my first child. We terminated when H and I took a transfer with our company out of town. When this current trauma became too much for me and I felt myself slipping back into the hopelessness of depression, I called her. She no longer does therapy with private clients. She is a medical director for a social services organization. She referred me to the T I am seeing today. I also called her again when I was trying to decide if I should go back on AD meds.

Yesterday I had an appointment with my current psychiatrist for a med check. Then I was at the park walking the dog while my daughter was taking a tennis lesson. While I was walking I heard her voice. She is from KY and has this twang to her voice. I thought I was really going crazy. I was thinking about my P appt earlier and then hear old T's voice! When I walked a little farther I saw her. She was hitting some tennis balls with a friend. I wanted so badly to say something to her but I didn't. I didn't want to interuppt her and her friend.

I've been thinking of sending her a letter telling her how I'm doing. Do you think she would want to know? I don't want to intrude in her life. I just thought she might be wondering if I'm doing better.

It is strange how seeing her is affecting me. I loved her so much. When I started seeing current T I had a dream one night that old T had died. I woke up sobbing. I felt like I had to mourn old T before I could begin letting new T into my heart.

I'm blubbering now.

What do you think. A letter ok?

Jillann