Wow, that sounds really crap. I'm sorry your T is so unreliable right now. I think that's bad; to say she'd get in touch and then not actually do it. Of course you care and of course it triggers abandonment fears and all sorts...

Hi Kmay,

I would be upset too if T said she would contact me and then didn't - twice! Your doing better than I would be because instead of reaching out for support I would probably do something bad.....

I think you definately need to tell her how it makes you feel when she doesn't follow through with what she tells you she is going to do. Can you email her or call her now to talk to her?

Thinking of you.

Jillann

Hi Jillian,

So nice to hear from you
It was hard to reach out for support...and trust me, I've been fighting doing something bad since. Thank you for your response. Yes, I can call or text her anytime outside of session but I just can't quite bring myself to do it. You know that whole struggle thing...the push pull. I have that mindset of "forget it...I don't need her anyway. She will text me eventually b/c she needs to confirm Monday's appointment and then I just won't respond!"....yeah the little child in me. Ugggg. I need some more time to sit on it and then I'm sure I can do the adult thing...hopefully. She is a very good T, very in tune with me and usually pretty dependable. everyone is human I guess...that child in me is just screaming though!

Kmay, I totally understand. It hurts so much and the screaming child within is downright horrible to experience.

Ok I just text her. Am having major major anxiety. I actually asked her if she felt she didn't want to work with me anymore b/c our last session was so absolutely horrid. I couldn't even look at her or answer most of her questions.

T did text me back. She apologized and explained she has been extremely busy. She works pretty much full time at a College in addition to her practice. Of course wit it being the first week of school, she is swamped. I felt a little guilty after that. Well, really guilty. At the end of the message she said "Stop trying to get rid of me, I'm not going anywhere." I'm so thankful she gets where my head goes and can reassure me. Thanks for your comments everyone

Very pleased for you - what a lovely text back too.

fishy

Hi Kmay, im freaking out, i think we mit have the same T lol.... Is it possible? also everything you said, i can relate with. Im the same, have the same fears, expectations and disappointments, and then i act like a child by not responding... :s
Im happy your T responded well, mine has also said something similar to me not too long ago.
On a off topic, maybe you can help me, i would like to post a new discussion but it doesnt seem to work? Is it normal it says "request being processed" forever? Thnx, looking forward to contribute more to this forum, so far im loving the community.

Hey LilTeaBag,

Lol..well does your T work full time at College as well? Maybe you should PM me where you live? Don't freak out...all is good

Do you know how to private message? (PM).

Where are you trying to post? What section? I have never had one say "request being processed". But what you can do, if you can private message, is message True North. She is a co-moderator for the Forum, so she can help you with that. Let me know if you have any other questions. It is such a great support group, I'm so glad you like it so far.