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Originally posted by deepfried:
LG I am so confused that so often it seems like your Ts will say one thing but then something else to one another? Was it T1 or T2 who claimed the other said you had BPD but didn't? Was it T1 claiming T2 said that also in that case?
I'm really sorry about this. Being hospitalized would be very scary. I glad I went the IOP route and I would hope your Ts could consider something like that before hospitalizing you. In what manner yesterday did T2 bring up hospitalization with you? I know she said you didn't need to go but why and how was the topic brought up in the first place?
It was T1 who said I didn't have BPD only to later say I do after talking with T2. But T2 said I didn't. So, I don't really understand that.
I think T1 is more honest with me about what they discuss and where I stand with them.
The hospitalization came up with T2 yesterday because I said that I feel that this ED is probably going to kill me before I can recover. Stupid of me to say that. It was in a moment of brutal honesty. T2 looked horrified when I said that. It is honestly the only time I've ever seen her look scared. As though I had just punched her in the gut. So that's when she mentioned hospitalization but then said she wasn't suggesting she was going to have me hospitalized. Yet then this morning she called T1 and brought it up with her and tried to get T1 on board with this idea. T1 was like, "I don't think LadyGrey is going to respond well to that idea". (I love her!) She said it wasn't a good idea for me.
I see T2 on Monday and I definitely plan to bring this up with her.