My T says things like that to me and I can't take them in. I make her stop talking when she does that. For some reason it hurts or maybe more likely it makes me feel and then I hurt. I don't know if I will ever let her really care for me.

Thank you ((Draggers))

I'm having so much anxiety from T session today. T said some powerfully moving stuff to help my inner kid cope. Just… something I wish I could swell over with tears because it was, again, addressing stuff I can't.

I told T that I want to hear that things were not okay, but that it was hard and that I know I had to tell myself. She was gentle. I feel bad separation anxiety right now - THIS is why I don't 'take it in'. Grr.

I'm sorry you don't believe your Ts either… and that hearing people say things like that affects you not in a good way. I get it.

Trusting sucks.

Thanks for being here

Cat, Draggers, Becca--I can relate to this. Everytime I hear one of these affirmations, it really is a turn off for me. I think it has to do with still not being in the space to accept it yet. He kept telling me things like this and at one time I told him to shut up, then apologized for it. He said that was okay that I said that, he just wanted to know why I wanted him to shut up. I think it boils down to not wanting to hear it because it's still not in my consciousness yet. Things like this take time. And like he says, sometimes you have to say it and hear it over and over and over again before it becomes engrained in us. Trauma therapy takes time, expecially if there are multiple years in-between the traum and the time you seek out therapy.

For what it's worth...

LJB