The counsellor who terminated with me last year, replied to my complaint. She stated anything and everything she knew that could be thrown at me, - she has made things up, she has refused to admit some of her mistakes, saying I made them up, she has distorted nearly every point that I made, some are almost laughable. Like in reality, she refused to let me record sessions and she even insisted that BOTH her supervisors advised her not to let me. but in her letter today she writes " I agreed to let my client record sessions but she never brought the recording device.". I once even said that I could record her secretly but that I would not. She was outraged. "How dare you go against my boundary that I will not let sessions be recorded."

anyway, she paints the blackest picture that she can of me, using small details and magnifying them. It is an attack on me and a vehement defense of herself, but she even manages to come across and "but I did so much for her and she was too unstable ..."

My present T said she was not only damaging but toxic and this letter today reminds me of how she would distort things and actually believe her own distortions.

I hope I don't go under, with her onslaughts. I hope I keep steady. It helps being able to compare her with my extremely professional and competent psychologist who would not dream in a million years of using any information against me in order to defend himself, he would rather look at why we are misunderstanding each other and apologise for not being clear enough or whatever.

I am SO glad I am away from her. Why on earth did I ever think she might be able to learn from my complaint?