I'm mulling over a boundary and expectation muddle regarding my mother yet again. She hasn't known I've been in therapy, although I've been going for over a year. Over the last few months, I've had lots of dreams about bringing her to meet T. They were always happy dreams, and before long I found myself wistfully wanting to make it happen in real life. The reasons are complicated, maybe not terribly relevant to this post, and anyway I'm not sure I fully understand them myself.
Well, I asked T if it would be okay, and she said of course, although she didn't think it would be a good idea to get into any "issues," she was cool with the notion of a low key introduction and some light chit chat, if that was something I wanted.
After a lot of preparation and thinking of what I might say, I broached the topic with my mom. I carefully explained about T and therapy, leaving of course a lot out, and said that I wanted her to come with me in a couple weeks. Just for fun. I wanted her to meet T and see what it all was like. I stressed that T was very nice and non-threatening, that she wouldn't ask her any awkward questions, that we could bring Baby as an icebreaker, etc. etc.
She says she won't come. That I just have to accept that. Of course I can accept it, but. . . I'm hurt. I think she ought to have agreed to come. I am not asking very much, am I? I can't imagine refusing my daughter a request like this. It was no small thing for me to invite her into my therapy sanctuary. I would have hoped that she would have appreciated that, and realize that her accepting the invitation obviously meant something to me. If she cared about me more, wouldn't that have been enough to make her say she'd just come and sit it out for an hour, even if she was worried about it being awkward?
I complained to my brother about this (he's the only one who really understands our dynamic). I believe he thought it was wrong and selfish of me to try to push Mom out of her comfort zone.
I don't know. What do you all think?