For instance, we learn to accept that we have needs, and feelings, fears, weaknesses, regrets, and so on. As our Ts model how to be accepting, kind, and tolerant of all these vulnerable aspects of our being, it sets an example for ways we might consider relating to ourselves-- ways that are more healthy, relaxed, and "life enhancing" than destructive coping mechanisms we may have developed due to trauma or whatever.
Or at least, the above is the general impression of what goes on in therapy that I've gotten from this forum and from T. And that is all well and good but. . .
some aspects of us really *aren't* okay, aren't they?
Today for some reason I was more blunt with T about some of my character failings than I have been before. I talked very frankly about feelings that I know to be petty and materialistic on the one hand, and some other feelings that are malicious, vindictive, and contemptuous. I called these the "evil bits of me."
She was very accepting, though. She seemed amused, smiled a lot, asked me several times, "What is so evil about that? Sounds very human to me."
Her response was nice in a way, but it seemed a little off, maybe? I mean, it *isn't* okay to be petty, materialistic, malicious, vindictive, contemptuous, and so on. I think I disapprove of her lack of disapproval, lol. What if I had told her that I wanted to kill innocent strangers or something? Would she have said, "What's so evil about that? Sounds very human to me." Okay, I know that is an extreme example. The point of all this is, I can understand, I think, accepting that I am vulnerable, have feelings and needs that have often gone unmet, etc, even though that can be difficult to do. I'm not sure about accepting parts of me that seem just plain wrong, though.
Any insights on this, anyone?
Excuse all the black and white thinking, please.