Hi All,

Now, I'm sure a lot of you also dealt with this... googling your therapist... finding out stuff about them and being tormented by it.
I've been more lucky recently with finding out stuff about him. It's not much but enough to make me really upset.
He has a website where I found the address of his second office - where he lives.
I googled the address and I found another person website with a reference to the same address. This is his wife and I'm bursting with jealousy and hatred towards her. I told him during my last session how I hate her and want her to suffer. I want her to be raped. That is my cruel wish and I am not backing from it and not ashamed of it.
Than I found more, I found her facebook profile, I found her picture on the local newspaper, I found his twitter profile with her following it. That made it 100% for me that it is her. I found out to which gym he is/was going to. I know where she works. Eventually I found a photo of him with her.
I feel so helpless. I wish I could dump all my angry feelings at her and harm her with them, damage her. I would like to have power to destroy her. While the only power I have is to destroy me relationship with my therapist and desroy myself.

Please tell me, did any of you deal with this kind of feelings and how it ended. It is overwhelming and so difficult.
I thought after I burst out on my last session it shouldn't get any worse, but this is worse.