(((Halo))) & (((DF)))

I'm sorry the waiting is so long and difficult. May the rest of your time pass quickly and your reunification with your T's be everything that you need. In the meantime, please keep reaching out here.

Hi, 5 more sleeps here as well.

Although my T did shock me, she sent me an email to check on me and said she knows it is hard but she will be back soon, and we will get back to normal sessions once more.

Hearing from her really helped my spirit!!
It was like a pure refreshing breeze for me.

I think I lov this dear lady!!

Yes Halo - I understand how hard it is - 14 more sleeps for me Sorry, it's just not easy! I'm on holidays (some government depts close down for a bit over this time)and trying to recover some physical wellbeing - my best (only local) friend is away for two more weeks and what keeps me going is my beloved dog and this community we have here, which is and at the same time
I'm trying to do one good thing for myself each day (mostly chores that have been neglected for a while!) just so I don't just feel like a limbo dweller
Oh Marsh - love your T too
Take care
Morgs

Hello
I´m new here. I am really glad I found this webside. I´ve been feeling so alone. My Psychologist has been on vacation for 15 days now and I have to survive for 13 more. It hurts.

I have been seeing her for 3 years and last spring I finally started trusting her. I felt she would be there no matter what.

The 6 weeks summer break was really difficult and on week three I had to seek help from the hospital.
But I felt the doctor on the Psychiatry didn´t understand what I was going through. I told him that I felt I couldn´t live without her and that I knew where she lived and loved looking at her family-pictures on her husbands webside. I felt he saw me as a stalker.
The doctors response told me my feelings where not real, it´s "just" transferene, very common in therapy,we have known this since the days of Freud... you don´t really love her, you don´t even know her.

My P knows about the transference. And even tough I find it really diffiult we sometimes discuss it. We both knew that the holidays might become difficult for me, and she offered to call me on the 29th.
Yesterday I waited the whole day (should have asked her what time she was going to call). Late in the afternoon she called and I was really happy when the phone rang, but at the same time I almost didn´t want to answer.

I lied to her, I said everything was fine, Christmas was great and I am going to spend the new years alone because I feel like it. The relationship with my girlfriend is fine but I don´t feel like seeing her. And everything will go back to normal in 14 days.

She asked if I could not talk because someone could hear me. I said no it´s just me and my pets.

I wish I could have told her I could not talk because I am so hurt.


Wow... this was not supposed to be such a long reply... there was just this flood of words.

Thank you for beeing there

I lost count. My T will be back sometime in January. One day at a time.

PG

Hi Halo- hows things today? I`ve actually stopped counting down days until i see T. I guess i think that if i dont know how meny days there are left, it would be easier for me. I dunno.

Moomin- WELCOME to the forum! Great to have you here, and thanks for sharing,- sorry to hear that you didnt manage to tell your T how you felt, when she called you. Gosh, i relate to that "fine" answer.. Hang in there, and keep posting about it if you want to? There`s a bunch of us that struggle with Ts vacation these days, as you know, that can offor support.

5 more days now! I'm sure it will be easy since that's a normally waiting time for me. My T has been amazing and so supportive he makes it kinda hard to miss him, if you know what I mean. Hugs to all of you waiting.

Hi Moomin, welcome!

5 more days until T1 and 7 more days until T2, although I don't really give a crap about T2. I really really REALLY miss T1!!!!!!

She has been texting me which helps for like a minute, and then it seems to just make things worse for me...the longing for her just intensifies.

I have almost two weeks until I get to see my eq T. She did text me to tell me she changed her cell number (which I never call, except for scheduling/ running late issues) and of course, I freaked for a moment that she was changing her number because she is leaving for good. I am tempted to call and ask if she is... but then if she is, i would fall apart and I rather find out from her in person... and realistically, she isn't moving away. sigh.

less than two weeks before I get to see her and the horses again. feels like forever.

only 4 more days until I get to see my regular T. She's reachable by phone and said we could talk - but I'm trying to resist from calling her and asking for that - only 4 more days anyhow.

Six days here. It feels like forever. I've been sick since Christmas and it would be nice having someone care about me, so the wait feels longer to me. ~D.

Hi Moomin and welcome to the forum, you have definitely come to the right place. A lot of us struggle with our feelings of transference and I have found a lot of comfort here trying to deal with those feelings.

I have ten more sleeps til I see P and only four sleeps til I see my doctor.

13 sleeps to go Hang in everyone and post your screams when you need to

Hi Moomin, welcome.

3 1/2 more days til I see T in session.

Is that a light I see at the end of the tunnel????

Or is it another train coming down the tracks??

Hi Moomin, Welcome to the forums.

Sorry you are having a hard time while your T is gone!

Debbye (((((( ))))))

I know its not the same but we all care about you too!!