I suffer from severe abandonment issues and it just seems like every summer is sheer torture for me. Just the thought of some people who've become part of my support system going away on holidays plus my therapist for her 3-week vacation keeps me in a constant state of hyper vigilance. Even just seeing people drive out of the office parking lot Friday afternoon's triggers panic attacks. After being in therapy for ~5 yrs, I would have thought they would ease just a little. I'm at the point again that I'm not sure I can tolerate seeing her for my next 3 bi-wwekly appts before she goes away in july. I really try not to let myself get into the vicious thought cycle but I inevidibly do anyway. It's one of the reasons I decided to join this web site. Anyone have any thoughts?
Auntie Crash