Also, this may be triggering as it probably keys into what a lot of us fear the most when we get involved in therapy, and I hope it doesn’t upset anyone. I just think it’s something worth thinking about, and it’s certainly something I need to talk about.
In the last couple of months on this forum there have been some what I call horrendous betrayals of clients by therapists who up till then seemed totally trustworthy and totally there for their clients. These betrayals have been sudden terminations or warnings of imminent termination seemingly out of the blue - totally unexpected and unanticipated (except in one’s worst nightmares!) My heart really goes out to those of you who have (and still are) suffering because of this happening.
To be honest I don’t really care that the reasons for such things are human fallibility or weakness or emotional overinvolvement or burn out or whatever on the T’s part - the bottom line is that it’s just about the single most damaging thing a T can do. Here follows a rant.
I don’t for one moment accept either that it’s ‘in the client’s best interest’ - from what I can see it’s entirely in the therapist's best interest. Ultimately of course it IS best for the client not to continue with a T who can’t deal with their issues (for whatever reason) but I totally do not accept that the therapist in any way shape or form has the client’s best interests at heart when they withdraw suddenly like that.
This is not the same as the ruptures and disconnects that occur throughout therapy - where the T is committed enough to work through them and STAY the course. This is about T’s who suddenly pull the plug on therapy altogether.
We have no option but to rely on a T’s being well trained, professional and in charge of their own self care and awareness of how much they can or can’t handle. I think it stinks that Ts will allow clients to get attached, will even encourage that attachment and dependency (or at the least not deal with it properly when it arises within the context of their approach) - and then suddenly turn around and cry ‘no can do’. After all the whole premise of healing therapy is based on implicit trust on the client’s part - something that most of us are pretty chary of handing over - for obvious reasons.
I also don’t believe that a T suddenly one day realizes that they ‘can’t’ help a particular client anymore - they have to have had some inkling for some time prior and it doubly stinks that they don’t keep a closer eye on themselves and have a bit more honesty both with themselves and with their clients about the direction their own fears and inadequacies are taking them. That at least gives a client an opportunity to work through and come to terms with their T not being the all caring all trustworthy person they’ve been led to believe they are, with the T still present. I would expect that to be the least a T should do - after all we’re constantly being told to go to really difficult places, why the hell don’t they apply that same emotional principle to themselves??? Actually put themselves through a difficult emotional process giving the client time and presence to start accepting the idea, instead of just dumping us from one session to the next.
So ok, the bit that really concerns me - is that the therapies most at risk (so it seems to me) are those where the clients are really emotionally involved with the therapist, where the clients have been given so many signals and signs and even open actions and words that indicate a level of intimacy and closeness that you wouldn’t normally consider par for the course in therapy. This scares the hell out of me and as I’m just starting out with a new T I want to make sure that the same thing doesn’t happen to me. I’ve spent a very looooong time finding the right T, it would totally destroy me if this guy turned out to be just such a rug puller.
So my thoughts are that no matter how much I might want closeness and reciprocal emotional intimacy with a T, if he so much as hints at any kind of caring or emotional involvement on his part, I would read that as a BIG RED FLAG. I am eternally grateful to AG for having laid out so clearly just how a T can take attachment and make all those needy and painful and terrifying feelings and needs ok in therapy, WITHOUT ever openly stating his feelings about anything, without acting in a ‘normal’ human way in response to those feelings. IMO the caring has to be tacit and implicit, not overt.
I also don’t think it’s down to us to have to anticipate T’s getting too involved or too freaked out or whatever, but the conclusion I’m coming to is that we’re going to have to. That it’s down to us to have some idea of what is and isn’t ok in therapy in terms of emotional sharing and caring on T’s part so we can protect ourselves from the awful awful fallout of a T’s screwing up.
Sorry again if this is triggering to anyone, especially as for some this kind of stuff is only likely to rub salt in their wounds. My heart really does weep for you - and if it’s any consolation at all, it’s that I at least have learned some very valuable lessons from your terrible experiences.
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