Do you ever wish that you could spend the energy you are putting into therapy on something else? I do.

People say it on the boards all the time and I've certainly found it to be true-- therapy is hard work, takes lots of energy, and when you are working on core stuff, foundational issues, it can feel all consuming.

I spend so much time, so much mental energy, on thinking about therapy, T, my relationship with T, the work we are doing, etc.

I won't say that it isn't worth it. It *is* worth it, but starting out I never would have expected it to become so all consuming. I am not nearly as symptomatic as I was and for that I am grateful, but I feel sometimes as though I have swapped my symptoms for an obsession with T and my own mental processes and reactions. I think maybe it's starting to get old.

I find myself wishing I had more energy freed up for other things-- like working on my marriage, or some DIY projects around the house, hobbies. . . I'm not even sure what, just something different.

It doesn't seem like it should be impossible to have more of a life while continuing with therapy. It's just that therapy has been so intense, not constantly, but often, that it crowds out my ability to focus on other things. I wonder if there is a way to dial back on the intensity without jumping ship, abandoning the work in progress.

Can any of you relate to this at all? What have your experiences been with juggling therapy plus life with only so much energy to go around? What do you do when you are feeling impatient with the whole process?

Looking forward to hearing about your thoughts and experiences! Hope everyone is having a good-enough weekend.