The dream is with me and T in a lake...somehow the truck we are in is in this huge lake...I am in the driver's seat and he is in the passenger's seat...We are surrounded by alligators. I keep saying to him, "Do you see the alligators?" He says, "Yes, don't worry. I do this all the time."
Now, if there is one animal I don't want to be around it is an alligator. When I have thought of this dream...I have thought how terrified I was to be surrounded by them.
In the next part of the dream, I proceed to get out of the truck...to swim to the shore. I have recently been asking myself, "Why would I have gotten out of the truck if I was so terrified of the alligators?" I had to swim through them to get to the bank.
It has recently occurred to me that I am more terrified to be close to the Therapist. Oh, how am I going to do therapy if I can't let him get close? He doesn't have to get close to me, but I have to be willing to let him in.