Hi Kid... panic attacks will make you exhausted. All the energy it takes to experience one and then try to contain it is hard work. Can you talk to your T about getting some medication to use when needed. I have Xanax and I take half of the smallest dose and it is enough to tame the worst of my anxiety when it strikes.

I think the anxiety is part of something that is pushing at you and coming into your consciousness. When do you see your T again? Can you contact her when you feel like panic is coming on?

I'm sorry you are struggling so much.

TN

(((TK)))

I'm so sorry you are suffering, I wish you had a little relief now That really is such a tough place to be in, when you feel so past your limits. I'm glad you are still reaching out and writing about it, it's so important to know you are heard and understood. Nothing to be sorry for! I think TN has some really good suggestions, I've found that sometimes adding anti-anxiety med has helped in the past, especially to have for 'as needed' times. I don't know if this applies to you, but I've also found that if I can manage to make time for extra sleep over a weekend or something, it seems to bring down the intensity a bit. (obviously the hard part is getting to sleep when that overwhelmed though) But it seems to counteract the extreme amounts of energy taken away from all the anxiety if able to get just a little sleep. I hope you'll keep being gentle with yourself.. take one moment at a time. Sending hugs



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Hi everyone...I stayed home today because I'm utterly done in. I have my appt with T this afternoon. In the middle of Monday night's 3rd attack, I called and left her a v/m so she could hear the state I was in. Whether she was able to understand what I said, don't know...guess I'll find out in a little while.

Regarding meds, unfortunately because of the addiction aspect (I'm also a recovering alcoholic), I'm very limited in what I can take. However, that said, my psychologist did prescribe me 25mg of Seroquel. Does anyone have any experience with that drug? If so, any feedback is welcomed.

Today, I feel wobbly and very, very tired...like the last few days and attacks have caught up with me even more. A sad song plays on the radio, I cry. I accidentally see an upsetting scene on TV and it triggers me in ways I don't understand. When I finally do sleep, it's not fitful and wake up with a start and sometimes shaking. Whenever that happens, my Patches is half sitting on my head like she senses I'm struggling even in sleep. Li'l one is in a constant state of fear and the adult Kid doesn't know how to help her cuz she's too busy trying to survive her own day and sound somewhat intelligent at work, trying to be a somewhat productive civil servant.

Right now, it's back under the bed covers we go until we have to leave to see T this afternoon at 3:30. Tonight, big Kid is suppose to stage manage a local musical theatre show. I'll be in zombie mode by then.

Sorry to sound so grim but unfortunately that's where li'l one and I are at right now.

The Kid

Hi The Kid,
Hope your session helped.
I take 25mg Seroquele every evening. It was mainly prescribed to help me sleep, but it also helps reduce my anxiety. I also have Xanax to take as needed. I find now though that the Seroquel taken regularly is good and I very rarely take the Xanax. I was initially worried about the Seroquel because of the listed side effects, but my P explained that my dose is so small that it is not a problem.

Big hugs to both of you. I'm so sorry things are at crisis point. I agree on the meds front. Recently I had to go and get some Valium at a very low dose just to allow me to function enough to get through the day. I wonder whether doc would make an exception to help get you through the immediate crisis?

I know that what has happened has absolutely rocked your world but if you can, try to hold on that you were really getting somewhere with Lil one and T and that that means it is possible to get back there. I'm just sorry that you have had this terrible shock.