Have to say though that I have NEVER discussed sex (or very much to do with the body at all) with any T I’ve ever had - if the topic started to loom up in my mind I pretty quicksmart shut down on that train of thought.
But - recently a T I saw brought up the idea of female orgasm (gah I even hate the words that surround sex, they’re so clinical and ugly - got to be a man who invented these words lol) - anyway, she was using the analogy of women who can’t orgasm - that they’re right there but just can’t seem to break through to climax, as a suggestion to maybe describe for me a state of permanent emotional tension that I’m living in. NO WAY thinks I, immediate and awful feelings of profound discomfort even at the very mention of anything to do with sex. I couldn’t even bring myself to seriously consider what she was suggesting so all I could do was mutter ‘no’. Hah didn’t even want to think about it being a parallel and certainly don’t now either. BUT considering the huge mish mash of feelings of shame, disgust, repulsion, revulsion you name it, that I sense in me about all things physical, I am guessing she might well have had a point.
And I have to add that it’s only because she was a female T that I even tolerated her saying that, if it had been a male T I think I would have been out the door in no time at all. Ick ick ick the very thought of discussing this sort of stuff with a male T makes me want to run away and hide.
So ok that’s where I’m at, at the moment. (Nowhere, in other words lol). Any thoughts on this freaky topic anyone?
Go on be brave, if no-one replies within the next ten seconds I swear I will delete (just kidding, I’ll leave it up for at least ten minutes )
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