Does anyone ever feel like they have lost part of themselves through therapy? do you ever get it back? A long time ago my T told me he thought I could feel better but better wouldn't look the same. I had a very difficult session last night talking about s*x and my CSA (i've made a longer post with more details but I don't know how often people check that forum).

After a restless night I wrote my T saying I think 2+ years of therapy has resulted in me losing my sense of family, my relationship with members of my FOO, strained my relationship with my H (which at the beginning of therapy improved), and any sense that I could manage life. What I've gained is that I'm a better parent when I can tap into my empathy for my childrens (sometimes not always) and my dependence on my T who I don't think likes or respects me so I don't leave therapy even when I think I should. Of course my T is away for a long weekend so I won't hear from him until Monday.

I know people say that things get worse before they get better when talking about trauma but how long does that take? how do I know that this is worse before better instead of steadily downhill? Does anyone have any idea?