I was reading the topic trust issues that Unbroken started.
that topic is really opening my eyes today...thanks for posting...
I started a new disscusion, because I do not want to interrupt Unbrokens one, but I also have trust issues.
However I have another question, that is maybe related to the trust topic.
I am also doing this work with my loud voices inside me, that aoutlouds the wise one...but this little voices scares me...not only on my inner child levels but I think also on my adult level...so trusting myself its really hard thing for me...
In therapy i find it relly difficult when I try just to listen to this small voices...because I am scared off them...But then my T asks me why am I scared...why I do not let them just be...at least for that hour that I am with her...at that point I usually shut down and make the distance...The she confornts me with question if I trust her. And the answer is so difficult, because I do trust her, I am just afraid...not really know why...somehow I cannot past this issue. So general answer is, that If I let my voices to be, something will be wrong and she will left me...But then she says or she said a million times that she is not leaving me, nor she gives me any feeling she will do so...Then I say I do trust her, but then she asks me what do I think it will happen if I let go? And I do not know the answer...at that point I just stay in fear state...my anxiety level reaches the top, I shut and I am lost...So I need some insights, please
Why I cannot let go? Why do I find myself in a blac hole and not know what to do...how to answer exactly what I am afraid of...?Help! please...