I posted several weeks ago about deciding to switch from seeing T on a weekly basis to once every two weeks. It's been going okay for the most part.

I had a session on Thursday and it was the first time I had seen T in a month, thanks to the new schedule and the fact that the previous session was via telephone. Although it was great to see her again, I mostly felt this urgency to talk about all the deepest, heaviest stuff that had been in corners of my mind over the last couple weeks. Things pile up. But the hour can feel so short, so it felt almost like a rapid fire condensing of one emotionally intense topic after another. Needless to say, I felt quite edgy and dysregulated by the time the session was over and that mood lingered for several days. I ended up contacting T to see if I could see her soon. She had some time open today and so I went in this morning.

This session went very well. She seemed to know that I pushed myself too far and to know what I needed. . . she talked a lot (normally I do the majority of the talking) in a very soothing voice about some of the things she thinks I should be focusing on, some insights she's had about the work we are doing. She was very encouraging and affirmative and gentle. I felt so much calmer, sort of like having my nervous system reset, and I have had a very good day today.

I asked her if she thought I needed to go back to seeing her weekly, and she said that was a good question. She said that it depended on how I wanted to do therapy for now-- if it was just for maintenance and support, she thought every two weeks would be fine, but that if I wanted to continue to deal with deeper work like at my last session, she thought I might find I'd do better on a weekly schedule.

I feel like I am at a cross roads and am not sure what to do.