Just got back from my T....all went well until I (finally) raised the issue of how I felt re: the events of 3 weeks ago. There was a deadly silence (or so it felt like). It was almost time to go though, so I bet she was relieved that I was leaving in a few minutes. It really felt like she didn't want to discuss it (that may have been me though).
I love my T so much; she is lovely. I really don't want to upset her. *sigh*
You see the problems this has caused? We will work through it though I hope.
It's funny what you say about prefering to see your T in a neutral setting...I am the opposite! My last T was in a clinic and I find it much nicer that my current T sees me in her house. I know a lot about her family, I've been in her garden, her loo, I know where her weekend place is, her allotment...all sorts....it's nice...I find it comforting and it makes me feel close to her. I can understand what your saying though and you may well be right about making things focus much more on the therapy, but I just find the not-knowing too painful. It just goes to show how different we all are and how individual therapy is - what suits one person does not necessarily suit another I think.
Things are hard at the moment, but I do not regret saying what I did three weeks ago. There have been times when I have regretted it, yes, but I have a feeling our relationship will be a whole lot stronger and deeper in the long run.
It's just hard getting there, that's all....
PQ