Feel better soon, AG! And good luck with the party this weekend. Sounds like fun. I hope you're feeling like a 'death star'!

MTF

((((hugs)))) to you, AG. I'm sorry your H is stuck at work right now when you've had so much going on. I hope you are feeling better soon and all the party prep goes smoothly. Good for you allowing other people to help! That is so hard. We're all here whenever this busy season calms down for you and you are rested and recharged!

Aw AG,

Sending you many get well hugs and strengthening thoughts to be better by the weekend,

starfishy

Oh dear, AG... So sorry to hear you are not feeling well and with the party this weekend and so much to do. Definitely accept all offers of help and get as much rest as you possibly can. Not sure why you want to be a "death star" but in my book you are a "rock star" and I know the party will be a raging success if you are there.

Sending you hugs and virtual chicken soup.
TN

(((AG))) So sorry you are feeling so yucky. I hope you feel better soon and the party goes off without a hitch!

(((AG))) I hope you're getting some rest right now and are feeling better for the party!

((((AG)))))

Sorry to hear about your infection and that your husband is being sequestered. Interesting how life can throw this stuff at you but you are using it as an opportunity to grow. Hope you feel better and that the party is a huge success.

Liese

(((((((AG))))))) You already have plenty of chicken soup so I will send you hot tea and toast. I hope the strike ends quickly, that you kick the sinus infection soon, and that your daughter's party is a blast.

Much love,
SG

Feel better AG!! Hope the party is a smash!!

Hope the party is going well and you are feeling much better by now too. Enjoy!





.....eeeerrrm not sure about the 'dad dancing' though, sure you'll do a better job

starfish

Thank you all so much! Just popping in to say that the party was a smashing success, I did manage to accept help and found out the wonderful fact that I have a lot of very wonderful friends. I felt very blessed to have so many wonderful people in my life and I felt very loved. It was worth the stress.

Unfortunately, the party fairies did NOT come to clean up last night, so I'm off to do the honors. And in other good news, there's a new contract up for a vote, which is highly likely to pass, so the strike should be over by the end of the week, which means my husband will actually be living at our house again.

So I am hoping to actually be back to posting soon.



Also want to say a belated welcome to all the new posters!

AG

Thanks for the update AG! So glad to hear the party was a success, and that you were able to accept help from your friends!

Good luck with clean up, and with getting your hubby back from the grips of contract negotiations!

Yeah AG! Glad the party was terrific!! Hubby back home must be great too!

ooop! starfish sent the laundry fairies over to me, and I've been holding them hostage. I guess I'll have to send them back so that starfish can give them to Ag for awhile!

So glad the party was a success and that you had help. Sorry about those party fairies...they are super lazy and should be fired! I hope your H's schedule is back to normal soon.

AG,

Great news! Thanks for updating.

Yea great news about the party ....now where are thise fairies when you need them?







Will that do?
starfishy

((((AG)))))

So glad to hear the party was a success and that your H might be returning home soon. But that is for my own selfish reasons as you've been sorely missed around here.

Liese

haha, I'm with you Liese. Hey, starfish! Those are *my* fairies!! I wasn't ready to give them up yet!

Hi All,
Thanks so much for all your well wishes (Starfishy, LOVE the fairies!). The union has passed a new contract so the strike is over. It will probably take a week or so until things are back to normal, but the end is in sight.

On the downside, I kind of collapsed after all the party stuff was over and ended up calling in sick on Monday and working at home yesterday. I'm seeing the doctor today to see if she can remove the Hobbit who keeps sitting on my chest whenever I walk around (for those who don't understand my weird sense of humor, my breathing sucks.) Which is why I STILL haven't been around. My energy level has been really low (lack of oxygen has that effect ) I'm so sorry not to be around more.

Can I just say that I'm really tired of being tired?

AG

(((((AG))))))

Hope you are feeling better soon. Did you take your centrum today?

Sorry that you are having such a rough time at the moment, there is really nothing more exhausting thaN struggling to breathe. I hope with some rest and meds you might feel easier soon. Go with what your body tells you and don't push yourself (((((((((AG)))))))))

......these might cheer you - pollen free naturally!

Starfish, thanks for the flowers!

I saw the doctor yesterday and my oxygen saturation was 92 (it's normally 98-99) and my sitting pulse rate was 110. Not really getting enough oxygen. When the doctor listened to my lungs, she said there was improvement as my bronchitis (which I didn't realize I had, I thought it was just a sinus infection) had moved upward into an upper respiratory infection. I only had two days of antibiotics left from the first time I saw her, so she gave me an additional ten days of antibiotics, refills for my nebullizer and put me on steroids. I'm not feeling all that great today and am still struggling with the breathing, but I am definitely better than yesterday. It's just taking way too long to get over this.

I am really sorry, as I feel like I've abandoned a whole lot of people. I just want to say that it's a lack of energy, not a lack of care. It's just been necessary to conserve the little energy I've had to get through things.

AG

((((AG)))) I'm so sorry you're sick. You really deserve a break! You haven't abandoned anyone. I hope you're able to rest up and come back feeling 100%. Take as much time as you need. Still thinking of and praying for you...

AG,

Goodness sakes, you've really been through the ringer!! I hope that you feel better soon. Don't worry about anything here, taking care of yourself is priority one. (((hugs)))

(((((AG))))), am sorry to hear that you are ill!I feel for you as I know also first hand what you are going through. I certainly hope you get to feeling better soon!!

Good grief AG, your year just doesn't get better health-wise!!! We Aussie's would say you must have run over a Chinaman, to have such poor luck!! Do whatever you need to get better and that includes not worrying about abandoning anyone here - everyone knows that just won't happen
Take good care, M x

Dearest Aglet- It's true that when you are not around, everyone understands that it is not because you are just ignoring us or that you don't care, or you are not bothering- really really we do understand....I think I can speak for the whole forum when I say that we understand that it is because of serious stuff going on and simply, your *life* when you can't be around, and can't answer all the multiple PM's you must get, besides the OF. It takes hours of time to answer all of those, and if the time isn't available, and the energy and health- then it simply must be put aside for a time. I know how hard it is though, I really do understand how bad that feels. Just take care of you, I hope in a few days those steroids will kick in and start working. I'm so sorry that you can't breathe. Oxygen is definitely *not* highly overrated.

Miss you, love you, please be good to you!

BB

(((((AG))))))

Sending lots of healing energy your way!!! Get well soon!

Sending many oxygen-rich and bacteria butt-kicking thoughts your way, AG.
Get well soon!! We love you!!

AG

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Sending many oxygen-rich and bacteria butt-kicking thoughts your way, AG.

AG - I hope you feel better soon. Rest up and don't worry about us!

I am VERY late to this thread, but I just wanted to wish you well and wonder how you’re doing now? Hope all is improving with you by now.

Hugs to you (((( AG ))))

LL

Hi AG
It's been quite a while since you posted - I do hope you're okay!! When you can please let us know how you're doing, ok?
xx Morgs

Thanks everyone for your support and Morgs, thanks for asking. I really do think I ran over a Chinaman Morgs (LOVED that one! )

I did finally get over the bronchitis and my asthma is under control and my breathing is clear again, for which I am grateful. But I went to see the dentist to deal with a cavity I had under a crown on a root canal and after 40 minutes of drilling and an x-ray,my dentist told me very reluctantly that the tooth needs to come out. So I am facing another tooth extraction at the end of the month and then I need to return to the dentist to have a bridge made (which, ok, is obscenely expensive but a cakewalk after all the work). I must admit to a bit of a meltdown that a friend had to talk me through after that appointment.

My husband and I had one week of a normal schedule but the plant went down again this weekend and he's back on 12 hour shifts.

I must admit to just feeling depleted and feeling like I just don't have too much to give right now. Although honestly, I also feel like I'm making too much of this, as I am grateful in this economy that my husband and I are both working and can afford my dental work. My husband has been really supportive which has also really helped.

But every time I feel like I can start posting again, it feels like something knocks me off balance again. I found a book of poetry by a really well known author (several NY Times bestselling memoirs and multiple awards and prizes) and in the acknowledgments she mentions my therapist by name and one of the poems is dedicated to him. And of course she looks fabulous in her picture. I've had a really bad reaction to this and gotten really triggered. It's been very threatening to my sense of the relationship between my T and I being real (which is frustrating in it's own right, as it feels like I have dealt with this issue so very many times). I emailed my T and was brutally honest about finding the book and all of my feelings and I have a session scheduled for next Tuesday. It was a very reassuring reply (for a therapist ) but I am feeling so much shame that I am dreading seeing him as much as I am looking forward to it.

There are a few friends working very hard to help me get through this, and I really do know that so many of my feelings are irrational and not reality, but the feelings are still there and difficult to deal with.

I miss everyone and am sorry to be missing for so long. Hugs to all.

And I hope you're hanging in there Morgs, thanks for worrying about me.

Love, AG

(((AG))) I wish breaks could be purchased at the store, because it doesn't sound like you can catch one lately. I've been having the same problem. I'd buy one for each of us, maybe one for everyone on this forum.

I'm sorry that you have more dental work to face. I know that can be really triggering. I am so glad you have friends who you can and are reaching out to for support, especially with your H's schedule being so busy lately. That must be really hard.

I'm really sorry about what you found in that poetry book. I can't imagine that. I had one of T's clients accidentally show up for my slot on Monday afternoon and sit next to me in the waiting room. I thought I recognized him as someone who has gone after my husband's time slot before. Seeing this client smile and joke around with my T with such ease about the mixup when it is sometimes difficult for me to even speak was hard on me. I can't imagine knowing that someone I see as more "accomplished" than myself felt such a close connection with him. I'm glad he gave you a good therapist-y reassuring reply and you have a session to work through those feelings. (((hugs))) to you.

Phew!!! wipes brow!!! (((AG))) is slowly getting better - maybe 10 chinamen!!! not fair not right!! - so many things going on for you physically/emotionally - however, you will be okay - promise!!! You have loving supportive people there for you IRL, this forum wise and 'sigh' dear T wise!! No more time to talk tonight, but thinking of you! Oh yeah 'BREATHE' and go gently with yourself
xx from Morgs

((((((( AG ))))))))

Gosh things aren't getting much easier for you are they? It's all one thing on top of another at the moment, though I'm glad healthwise you are better.

I'm sorry that coming across that book has spun you out about T, it's obviously brought things up for you that are unresolved so I'm glad you've made that appointment. Hope it makes you feel better, and kicks the shame into touch.

Sending you lots of good wishes

LL

((AG)) I've read so many of your posts...possibly half of the 2,500. Your journey is deeply touching and inspiring. Your selfless and tireless sharing of so many intimate moments has made me examine and explore much of what I think and, to the extent I can, what I feel about what I think. Thank you.

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Originally posted by Attachment Girl:
...It's been very threatening to my sense of the relationship between my T and I being real.

My heart is in my throat reading this which means this must be a source of agita for me at a very core level. And doesn't that make sense? If our relationships with our T's aren't real, then is the sense of healing even real? Smoke & mirrors make for good parlor tricks but a bad foundation for recovering our lost selves. ARGH!

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Originally posted by Attachment Girl:
I emailed my T and was brutally honest about finding the book and all of my feelings and I have a session scheduled for next Tuesday. It was a very reassuring reply (for a therapist ) but I am feeling so much shame that I am dreading seeing him as much as I am looking forward to it.

You are so brave. Instead of swallowing the feelings you are grabbing them by the neck and frog marching them into the light of day no matter how painful it's going to be see them and have your T see them. I am blown away by your courage...again and again and again.