Hi All,
I am hoping for some views on this picture I will try to create here.

I am seeing a male T for ADHD/ADD testing and he is really nice in a different way than my T that I've seen for two years now.

He has taken history two sessions now and he gives me a description of things, e.g., he talked about cutting and explained what it might be about so I basically chose what the feelings were about for me based on his description...I've never done it but have had the feelings sometimes this past year.

Why can I talk to him about things with my T that I feel about her but I can't tell her exactly without a meltdown? But when he gives me ideas that she may have given in the past on what to do to sort my feelings out I feel like I can get started on it right now...well almost right now. Am I trying to not be separate somehow...kind of like living through your kids like some parents (was probably me) might do? I suspect this is all transference/attachment/disorganized attachment stuff. I almost thought about seeing him instead regularly but I saw her yesterday and although I tried to talk and had a meltdown I laugh at myself and then she throws stuff in there and then we're both laughing. In the past and even in PM'ing people here before people have pointed out things about her that I saw as negative but in my descriptions some people have shown that she might be meaning the opposite so without that I would be way back so I'm grateful. Am I putting too much into the 'therapy relationship' and not trying to stand alone? Don't worry I won't be offended just looking for others' thoughts on this?

Thanks in advance,
Hopeful