Who would of thought a child that was bullied by her entire family would one day realize that she was a bully too?
While growing up I had the best role models to teach me the "art" of bullying in my family. And depending on each family member, I copped it both physically and psychologically. I then spent near a life time of therapy trying to undo the effects of being bullied ( while bullying.) Tuff enlightenment!

Upon reflection, I was in fact dishing out my agro towards folk more vulnerable than myself. I used knowledge as power, and rose to the "top" several times while approval seeking. Once I got to the top I continued on with my antics to maintain that power. But time and time again I fell off my perch when I was caught out by trying to bully a bully (boss).

What does it all mean? I think it had a lot to do with my overload of repressed anger , and brains need to vent it as safely as she could. While seeking my families approval (unsuccessfully) they directed their agro towards me, and I in turn directed it onto others. As a family, we were dysfunctional as they come.

Bullying was an ongoing behavioral pattern of mine in an attempt to gain the approval of others, and a destructive way for brain to vent anger. Bugger me!

What other alternative was there but to bully especially when I would have been the first to deny that behavior in myself?

Obviously, once the "overload" of anger was vented there was no longer a need to bully.