I have something I don't understand that I hope someone can help explain. I have a great trauma T. I have been going to her for awhile. I have been very sick with pneumonia for the past two weeks. I have been too sick to go in for my weekly therapy sessions. At one point last week, I started to have some dark thoughts for the first time in awhile. My T and I have an agreement that I will let her know if I have any thoughts like those specific thoughts. She is ok with texting, so I sent a text to tell her I was really worn down from being sick and I was having the thoughts, but I wasn't going to act on them, I just wanted to honor our agreement and tell her. She texted back to tell me that she could call me later, after her kids were in bed, maybe it would help. I thought about it and accepted her offer to call me. She did, and she knew I was coughing up a storm like I have been most nights fighting this. She said I should not try to talk much. I said just didn't understand why I was having the thoughts. I'm sick, I will recover fine in time... She said they made sense, as being sick is like being trapped and I have PTSD from being trapped. She was very accepting and unphased by it and I relaxed.

She said the main reason she called because she wanted to remind me, "that I'm really here for you."

We talked for less than 10 minutes.

It made a huge difference in the moment and later. Her being really there for me, that really impacted me even in the moment. Just hearing her voice tell me, "I'm really hear for you" - why did this impact me so much? She seemed to know herself that it could help.