I texted T. 10 days ago, asking if she was alright (we just had the terrible plane disaster (MH17) and I sorted of wanted to 'count my sheep'. (Not that I thought she'd be on the plane, just checking all my 'loved ones' were still there.)
She texted back, told me she was alright. I asked if she would let me know when her baby was born and she said yes, she would. 'Promised!' (her text).
Last monday I heard thru the grapevine she had an emergency C-section, but was fine and her son (only two weeks early, which is a miracle if you know the story) was fine too. And everybody was happy.
I never heard it from her. She can't possibly know I heard. So... did she forget her promise... or did something terrible happen since? Or am I too impatient, the baby is one week old now.
I'm so tired of worrying and everything. Depression is roaring, and I'm scared to even be annoyed with her, in case something is wrong with her (can't find that out thru the grapevine.)
And somehow all the horror of the plain crash and this horrible war we have been drawn into, keeps seeping into my brain, and I can't keep it out. I seem to be getting 'porous' and everythinh hurts.