Hi TAS.
Yes, I would, and I have. But if I were actually on the brink of ending my life, I'm guessing I would be too shut down to tell anybody.

RabbitEars

Yea. For a very long time I felt that way chronically so it was easy to be open. If you're feeling like that please do tell your T or a crisis line.

Yes, I do. And I encourage you to, too.

Yes TAS - T should be most ready to help you with those thoughts/feelings.

FWIW
Absolutely not! I wouldn't come out straight & say that bec that has hospitalization written all over it.
But I'm sure it depends on how well u kno ur T. Mine there'd be no questions asked.
Mudd

Yes, I would and have.

Mudd has a good point. I am 100% certain of how my T would react, and he will be there for me without the threat of hospitalization, and he has adequately articulated what would push him to turn it over to emergency personnel. Hopefully, you have an idea, TAS.

I agree w/ Outsider. If I'd say that now & where I am in T they would know not to bother talking me out of it, too volatile. Really depends on how u word it & how well you know ur T. If u just want it said out loud, then see where it goes. Could give you insight on how your T reacts. With understanding & help? With comfort? With a phone call to authorities? Would be good to know TAS.

We have freely discussed this on several occasions. The challenges of living out there on top of pain in therapy made me want an "off" button from feelings, not so much from life. These days I am more inclined to think of ending my life only if I become incapacitated enough to not enjoy it in any way. I suspect even then my instinct to survive will kick in again, and have me test that decision to the max.

Yes, I do it quite a lot! I use the ED as my "not wanting to be here any more". You should talk about it.

Rabbit Ears, Catalyst, Outsider, Jillian, Rebuilding Me, RT aka Ketchup , and Muff...Thank you for your replies...I have a hard time letting him in on my personal struggles...I know, I know...that is what he is there for...

Mudd...I don't know how he would react. I think he would be firm and let me know under no circumstances would he continue seeing me if I tried something without letting him know I was struggling.

I think he would be curious as to what was causing me these feelings...which I have a very difficult time talking about...

I don't even know if I know him well enough to share something like this with him. I know for certain he wouldn't react because he is not a reactive person.

Thank you to each of you for your input. I truly appreciate it.

T.

Scars I think we cross posted...Thank you. I definitely will be thinking on it

My T and I have talked about this. I know exactly what to expect from T in all levels of my desperation. It really helps to know this.

Rebuilding Me: I think that is part of my hesitancy...because I don't know what he would say if I did tell him...knowing is security. I can't fault him as I rarely bring my guard down enough to allow him to see into my internal world...

Thanks. T.

Knowing for me was huge relief. Really, really important for me though is learning and experiencing that T wants to be there for me no matter what, that I can trust T. I know her boundaries too. I know that if I call, her goal is to work with me first to find a safe place by talking. I know exactly the steps we will do together to keep me safe. I know that T. cares so much for me and our relationship, that I understand, accept and respect her boundaries. Having those boundaries made me feel safe. So safe that I contracted with her on this issue.

(((TAS))))

I told my T too. And then I told him time and again when the feelings resurfaced. It helped a lot to talk about it. To finally have someone to share that with. Who can you tell that kind of info to? Not many people. Let him walk with you.

((tas))
i absoluetely would and have done so many times as it was an ongoing phenomena for a long time in my life.

TAS,
Just wanted to point something out (maybe I misunderstood?) You said

"Mudd...I don't know how he would react. I think he would be firm and let me know under no circumstances would he continue seeing me if I tried something without letting him know I was struggling."

Well, you would be telling him that you were struggling and having those thoughts, so it would seem like an odd time to threaten not to see you anymore if you DIDN'T let him know.

I've told my T what you said a number of times - he has handled it very calmly, and we discussed it in the same tone of voice we would use to talk about mundane things. It calmed me down a lot to be able to talk to someone about it. I think that's why he behaved that way - so that I will be more likely to tell him any time I'm feeling that way - which is a lot more clever than saying "if you don't talk to me about this and try something you are fired!"

Of course as Mudd said, the reaction would probably depend on what state you are in. From all these answers, you can see that many people talk about it and do not get sent straight to a hospital.

Peanut...I probably didn't communicate effectively. I think he would want me to talk with him about it vs. acting on any feelings or thoughts I was struggling with.

I have been thinking about you and wondering where you have been

T.

I have said this to my T and have been very low and we discuss it. I trust her too. She has told me that she struggles when I am like this and we talk about it. I have told her that her suggesting Hospital would make me run from her. When I am really low though - I don't tell her until afterwards.

The main thing is that you need to talk about it and to know how your T would handle it.

My T told me that there was much healing and learning in walking together through those very, very low, dark times. T's goal would not be to jump to calling 911, but instead work through it and only if we can't, and only if I can't be safe or follow a plan, she will do anything it takes to keep me safe. That makes me feel good that someone cares that much. It makes me feel safe. And, I am learning that walking together through these times is a lot easier than going it alone.