BG - You have already chosen the first option by posting here. I know the temptation to just do what could offer some immediate relief, without considering the ultimate reaction (shame, guilt, loss of control, whatever it may be). I'm sorry about the email and all the temptation you are faced with. You took one really big step by admitting it here. Could you take another step? It is not such a big leap from posting here to telling H or T...just inch forward a bit? ((((((BG))))))

You've been doing so great, BG. DO you really want to go down this painful road again? I'm on that road it it is leading me straight to Nowheresville. I want off. I want to be where you are...why would you want to go back to be where I am? Is it worth it?

ok, I hope that isn't coming down too hard. I hear your pain and frustration and sadness with your mom. Do you feel like it might help to share some of what happened here? I don't want to come off at all prying, but I wanted you to know that I care and am interested in being a friend to you right now, and especially if it would help you to stay away from the bottle.

(((((BG)))))

It's so hard to deal with the emotions that our parents trigger in us (or don't bother to trigger in us as the case may be) please share if it's helpful...sometimes it's really hard to do in RL, I know.

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I thought Wayne's World, Drop Dead Fred and Don't Tell Mom The Babysitter's Dead were like pretty much the be all and end all of entertainment.

Wait, are you SURE we're not sisters?


BG - Glad pizza and movie night went well. (((hugs))) on your way to bed. Sweet dreams!

Very powerful poem BG. The thing is... you are good enough... even more than good enough. We see it. Your kids and dh see it. I wish you would try to see it too.

I hope you enjoy the party tonight and make that decision not to drink alcohol. You will be proud of yourself in the morning. And please come back here to brag about your success. Enjoy the food the music and the people. And know that you are way more than just good enough.

Hugs
TN

So glad you have made that decision. And it was a good poem (I read poetry and write a lot of poetry, not that that makes me an expert)...so many places, where I stopped and thought, "Yes, that's it...just the right way to describe how it feels."

I look forward to hearing how the party went. Proud of you!!!

(((((BG)))))...loved your poem!! mlc

Wow, strong poem, really powerful and sad. Thank you for sharing. Keep riding those waves of feelings BG, the storm will subside....

((((BG)))))

starfishy

BG,

I don't usually post or read in here, but I happened to click on your thread.

I loved your poem. Very moving. Thanks for sharing it! I'm glad you enjoyed the party and that you are feeling better today.

For what it's worth, I think you are doing awesome!

(((BG)))
Sorry I wasn't around, but so glad you came through to this Monday morning, which is most definitely a cause for celebration! You should be very proud of yourself.

AG