Thanks, Hopeful! I'm nervous about going, but at least I'll have my kids with me this time! StarryRead More...

Dearest (((Draggles))) thank you so much - I'm so looking forward to watching this and enjoying!! You really are such a caring little honeybun!!! xxRead More...

((((TAS)))) There is no failing in therapy. It's taken me a long time to get that. Actually, I still struggle with it. If I was truly myself all the time in therapy, I would be unhappy and crying throught every session. Why not try the weekly sessions and see how you feel? If you feel worse, then talk to T about going back to twice weekly. If you feel better, then stick with it. It might not have to be a permanent decision. Good luck on Wednesday, if you go. LieseRead More...

Good topic, Yaku. Lots of stuff here to think about. TNRead More...

(((Anna))) So sorry that your T will be gone so long! Mine has already given me a heads-up that he may be unavailable next week, and I'm mentally gearing myself up for it. Last summer, my T had a massive stroke just a few hours after our appointment, and he wasn't expected to survive. I was devastated!! In a very selfish way, I might add, because all I could think about for weeks was just the following: "what if I never see my beloved again; how will I go on without him?!" And "what kind of...Read More...

Cat, Hoping you get that interview and the job if you can get everything to work in your favor. Good Luck. HopefulRead More...

Catalyst: Thank you! Hearing you admire the landscape lets me appreciate my country more. Never before have I thought how great it is that I can walk from my home through the forest to the beach, I can walk to the botanic garden and the zoo. 15 minutes drive and then I can walk the mountains. Glad you remembered my T collage and thought it was cool. I have many photos of OldT, which I have collected from the internet, but this is my favoured. I can feel as she looks at me with her caring...Read More...

Liese - Glad that holding onto your T is easier today. I think, despite my best efforts, I also get caught on past perceptions of my T and they interfere with me staying connected. It can be so hard to hold on at times and it takes me an extreme amount of reassurance to do it still. It can be difficult not to beat myself up over it, but my T has always said he understands that when someone's trust has been so wounded, it is difficult to be vulnerable again in that way. There are pockets of...Read More...

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TN, I'm glad it helped you also. It seems like if we could figure it out it would alleviate all the story tellin' fir me personally anyways...maybe? The positive keys also are interesting for me because I had one of those experiences recently so it took me back to a really relaxing experience. I'm glad you liked it also. HopefulRead More...

Aw, thanks to each of you, I feel better about this now!! I really thought I must be an oddity the way he said how unusual it was. Whew! I loved your stories - too funny about marrying your brother! I guess it would be interesting to figure out if any of our siblings married us , huh? Hehe. Or not.... !! Starry.Read More...

thank you BLT, your advice because you went through it too offers me some hope! not sure if she's not giving me what i need or i'm not letting her give me what i need - or a combination more likely... puppetRead More...

somedays - i am in a very similar stuck place right now... yes big fear = big resistance... i dont have any advice except maybe to just accept where you are and talk about where you are (and why) if you can. hope it goes well for you. TN, we're all jealous of your T, as you probably know puppetRead More...

Sorry I've ignored my own thread for so long. Something came up today and I have started to realize another reason it bothers me and it is just because of some inappropriate joking by H that made me feel another layer of there being something wrong with feeling liked, cared about, special to T. I talked to T about ad nauseum today and to H tonight and I think we're all on the same page about him avoiding those triggering teases, so I am feeling a little less stressed about it. Sometimes they...Read More...

Pingu, Catalyst, HeldInCompassion, Somedays: Thank you so much for sharing your experience with me. Catalyst: I swear that was just like me. For the first few months, every week, I would ask: "How much longer? How many more sessions?" He would tell me he couldn't answer that. At first I thought he was incompetent. I have fought having any kind of attachment, so I know specifically what you mean when you talked about 'tools' and such. Last session I told him how scared I was of forming any...Read More...

Thank you for sharing your experience with me. I really appreciate it I guess all things work out with time. T.Read More...

Thank you so much Anna. I appreciate you sharing that with me. T.Read More...

I am a semi-pro artist who really uses my artworks to express my inner world in various media. My suggestion about your anxiety, Cat, is to be brave but to start with a very simple drawing, as easy and brief as you need it to be, just to get started.Read More...

(((smallfry))) I can only say that if you were my child I'd be begging NOT to stay with this new job. Nothing is worth the sort of risks you are being asked to take. I just hope so much that you decide never to go back again. Hopefully you can fit right back into your old job. Please keep us informed of how things go and please look after yourself. AVRead More...

Hey HIC, I finally have the time to come back to this thread! Yeah, feeling sorry for someone does seem to have a more negative connotation, but not always (at least in my opinion). Sometimes we feel sorry for someone because we just can't put ourselves in their shoes to be able to really understand what they're feeling, so the best we can do is feel sorry for them and acknowledge that the situation they're in is unfortunate, but we can't relate to it. Also, just the phrase "feeling sorry"...Read More...

Thank you so very much all for your supportive responses.. Honestly I dont even remember how the next session went, or what happened or why or when I was feeling this way. Its all very confusing to me. But at this time, I am very grateful I have your responses to look to, whenever I am feeling this way again. I know my T cares, and thats probably comforting and equally horrifying to me, because Im not sure what "caring" means. But I suppose im learning, through this forum and through T...Read More...

Have a good time AG!!!Read More...

Thank you guys...your input is really helping me work this out. Thanks for the hugs, Yaku. ((((Yaku)))) Av, thanks for reminding me that everyone has doubts. One thing about working here (as a student worker, which I did for two years) is that I've gotten better at feeling okay about asking for help. I had to get up and ask questions for just about every phone call and student I talked to yesterday, but seeing that everyone was okay with it helped a ton. And it also helped to know that...Read More...

beautiful and sad words muff, but why are they 'parting words'?... i hope you're not going away? or are you ending therapy?... sorry if I have missed that... hugs, puppetRead More...

Oooh, I would definitely put a friggin' window in his closer office. As long as there are good blinds. The natural light is so much better! As for blankets, T has them. Either he has two of the same kind or he actually carts it with him to both offices so I can use it. He was doing that with the glove panda I made for him, bringing it to his Monday/Tuesday office, then to his Wednesday office, then home and back again the next week. It went everywhere with him. I told him just to leave it in...Read More...