Update Dr D is speaking to Dr B on Thursday. Dr D asked me how I'd like this to be resolved. Two years ago when we met after 7 years Dr B offered 50 minutes take it or leave it and then we were to never speak again. Who knows what Dr B is open to now. I've always dreamed of having full closure on it directly with her. Talking to her will be really hard. I have some big questions to ask her. I told him my ideal would be 3-5 sessions with one of the sessions in her old office. I wonder if one...Read More...

Cat - I am constantly apologizing, and T is there for me and has reminded me many times that nothing is off topic or too much to discuss. I'm the dolt that reads into things too much, and then end up tripping over myself to apologize! (I too, tend to overdo the apologies when things really get stressful for me, so I can relate to that!) Jane - I think I'm getting closer to ok with the med situation. I have already succumbed to the fact that I'll likely need anti-depressants the rest of my...Read More...

Thanks for the hugs Alpaca - They're great! Summer, what an experience you had with your P. I'm sure I would have just about fallen out of my chair as well. Sometimes our T/P's are not as attuned as we think they are. Thank you for continuing to encourage me to speak with my T around my feelings. It looks like that will work out okay. I am feeling much better today. I e-mailed my T this morning and she e-mailed me back saying that she was happy to hear from me and very pleased that I was...Read More...

sorry, I need to figure out how to make the picture smaller when posting.Read More...

xoxo, You're right things do become intertwined and it is so hard to keep them separate. Don't live near family but I did actually speak to her the other day and she sounded the same...anymore I just don't engage in too much with or about her...thanks for asking though. Take care of yourself. HopefulRead More...

xoxo, I PM'd you my response.Read More...

Echo, Since you have had a similar experience (but with somewhat better results)... you know it can be trying. Thank you for the multiple 's they were needed! kansasRead More...

Athenacus, I can relate with T needing therapy! I think it is ok to leave out some information and just hit important points. My T calls this filtering. While you are still in therapy you might ask T about disarming techniques to use with your X. Warm thoughts, kansasRead More...

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wow. thank u for ur responses. Thnk u for helping me understand why this is hapening to me. I dont remember feeling like that all the time when I was little, doing that *deperson* thing, but I do remember it happening a few times, strangely, when nothing was happening...I remember it happening at school once. That blog post u posted was so helpful. I cant believe how it described things so wel and put the pieces together for me. Sometimes I need people to tel me things so I can believe them,...Read More...

Thank you everyone for your wonderful comments. I appreciate your understanding and care. T and I did talk about this for the entire session immediately after it happened. I called her this morning after a mostly sleepless night. And I am sure we will be talking about again during our next session. I was so affected by this there was no way I could have talked about anything else. I am sure she loved all of this great therapeutic fodder this encounter has created for us. The thing that T...Read More...

((incognito)) Gosh your way of relating to your T resonates very strongly with me. I feel like I can't start talking until I am comfortable and safe, and getting comfortable and safe occurs very rarely, so then I bring that up and it feels like, all I ever talk about is feeling safe in therapy when I know there is other stuff that needs to be dealt with. So, I have very little wisdom to impart since I seem (?) to be in a similar boat... all I can say is that, at times, I've resorted to...Read More...

Ninn - I've had what you're talking about with really good sessions followed by backlash sessions. I HATE that! I'm so happy to hear about your session it sounds very sweet and connecting - that's great! :heart blink: It's nice to have a safe place to express ourselves. I'm sorry you are sad right now... I find often (at least for me) connectedness brings on natural sadness (grief, I imagine) in tandem. Hope all goes well getting the right medication for sleep. My P has been trying to...Read More...

I liked Ativan. I only had it while I was off any other meds because I had it "left over" from when I had gone inpatient. My psychiatrist would not prescribe it for me. I had gone off all my AD's cold turkey this past June and just had the Ativan when my anxiety came back in October (when my separation happened). So....when I ran out of Ativan....I ran out of options....and unfortunately for me, when I made that first visit back to the doc (a new one thankfully!) I couldn't "cover up" all...Read More...

Sadly, You don't deserve that onslaught and character defamation from your former counsellor, nobody does - what a betrayal. Its tragic that there are individuals like her that are in the field. It is you that know's the truth though. In that you can rest. Stay strong, keep steady, we're here, you'll make it through. I'm glad that you also have the support of your current T. Do take care.Read More...

(((R2G))) Glad to hear it went well. I did know about the frying pan thing because my doctor told me when I was pregnant. I was also anemic at one point and my GP recommended using a cast iron frying pan as way to increase my iron. Plus, I must confess, I love cooking in cast iron. We have a HUGE cast iron skillet that is my husband and I's favorite pot. I hope the meds give you some immediate relief and they can get to the bottom of what's going on. Sorry to hear about yet another doctor.Read More...

((((rara89)))) Welcome to the forums. I am sorry that you had to experience all that growing up, you deserved much better. Your anger is very understandable in response to what happened to you. But because you never had it modeled nor were you allowed to express your anger, you need to learn healthy, non-destructive ways to deal with it. There is a way to work through these emotions, but it will probably take a long time since you experienced these things throughout your childhood. Are you...Read More...

(((Cat))) I'm sorry I didn't see your updates until now and that you've had such a hard time. I am SO happy for you (though I know is painful) that you reached out to your T and that you went to the session and had such a huge breakthrough. I hope that things continue to settle out and you are able to take in the feelings and events from the session. You are doing really great work.Read More...

I think you should discuss your expectations with him in person i.e. checking weekend messages. If you want him to text you on a certain day/time because its really important to you you should probably also have asked him and pre arranged it in person not on his voicemail.Read More...

There are a lot of people studying to become therapists and we did have one therapist who was posting for awhile, but as another therapy patient seeking support. Shrinklady does occasionally pop in, but it's rare. But the purpose of the forum is definitely a peer support group rather than a source of professional treatment. All that said, there are quite a number of people posting who are quite well read and have a lot of knowledge about therapy and how it works, so there's a lot of good...Read More...

She can be more sensitive to you if she knows.Read More...