STRM, Just wondering how you found this. Actually, I'm not but I shared it with my T and he was wondering how I found it but I didn't tell him. It made me wonder how you found it! LieseRead More...

Hey Liese, I'm glad you were able to identify with what I said, sometimes the internal snowball can feel like you're very alone in feeling that way... Would you be able to explain what a 'rupture' with your T means?Read More...

Quell, My T says my name T and like many of the others, it's music to my ears. I don't know why. Maybe it's just that in that moment, I really know he knows who I am. It never occurred to me to look for him to say my name or not but I certainly take notice when he does say it. Sometimes it feels like I'm trying to wrestle a piece of steak from a dog. And it doesn't feel good when I "win" the steak. So I totally get how you are feeling there. It really does seem though that it is a very...Read More...

((((Yaku)))) It is super hard having to sit with stuff, isn't it? I'm glad your T is emphasizing patience...my T has to do the same thing with me. One thing I think I've realized is that if I post a whole lot about things, then they turn into just words rather than experiences, you know? I don't know if that makes sense. I think it's because my belief in some of my experiences is so shallow that if I share it too much, it becomes unreal because then it's *too* real. Okay, I know that...Read More...

Thank you so much to you all... I nearly had to cancel my session this week due to things related to my dad's surgery but was able to keep it. I actually had to call my T back and ask for the original session because I'd already rescheduled. Thank goodness I could keep this week's instead of having to wait more than a week, because as soon as I hung up the phone from my T after rescheduling (I couldn't manage to tell her anything - I just pretended it was a 'pesky' scheduling conflict ), I...Read More...

Oh, I am sorry...i had to delete, I am not sure why... apologies, all aroundRead More...

Somedays I´m sad to hear that your T isn´t as perfect as it sounded at first. And I can understand that now some of the things she said in the wonderful session sound just like she read the “attachment 101 – textbook” before seeing you. It must hurt a lot. I can feel that with my own T, that it is hurts a lot more when you have started to believe they are truly there for you and it is hard to believe. Then the next session they say something that we think proves that of course no one could...Read More...

This is absolutely true...you need to experience it over and over and again...many, many times before it will feel safe to let it in. It is as simple, and as difficult as learning to play a musical instrument...a matter of doing something the wrong way so many times, until your brain figures out the "right combination" and can respond the way you need, and that is appropriate. Slow but steady wins the race...every time. So I applaud your courage in pursuing the goal of allowing another to...Read More...

MONTE!!!!!!! It is so good to see you back I hope you will stick around and post lots more about how you're doing and how your therapy is going - I really missed your posts (((((((( Monte ))))))) LLRead More...

Hi Jane, I'm sorry things are difficult for you right now. It's so important to be mindful and I hope you can get there and be in the moment. It sounds like your T is attuned to you. It sounds like you two had a good talk. I have been feeling so good about my T, I wish I could share the peace I have right now. Thanks Jane for being so there for me too. You're awesome and have so much to give. Love, NDRead More...

heldincompassion, I don't know what I'm doing about 90% of the time with this anyways. After last session it took me about a week before I was able to accept the rambling and to pull anything really positive from it but eventually I did...but it can be hard to hold onto without going back to not accepting myself/behaviors again...I keep trying but get discouraged again...vicious circle. I just try not to give up! Thanks for your encouragement...not going for another 10 days as I don't go too...Read More...

A friend of mine mentioned that perhaps viewer discretion should be in order. It makes sense. I mean films that show bloodshed are usually rated 15 or over. Why should the news be any different? UV; I'm sure it wasn't. I was funny about putting this up incase people didn't agree with it being up. Most of the posts, if not all, seem to be about therapy but it did say coffee talk! Ha.Read More...

Chiming in to say "not weird at all, Ninna." Particularly, for me, the issue of touch. I can only do it if my brain shuts down so that I'm not really present for the handshake or the hug, to say nothing of more intimate touch. I finally raised that issue with T, sharing with him an incident I posted about a few months ago where I wasn't expecting his proffered hand for a handshake and completely freaked out. We discussed the fear aspect and he held out his index finger asking me to touch...Read More...

((((BUTTERFLY)))) Will miss you. Take good care of yourself while you are gone. xoxo LieseRead More...

BG, Yeah, it was a red flag for me too. Not enough to make me want to find another T, because I feel I am doing some good work with this T and have improved a lot as a result of therapy with her already, but I'm keeping an eye on things. I'm hoping what happened in the pregnancy session was just a poor judgement call on her part. . . none of her other disclosures have had a negative effect on my therapy, so I guess I can deal with a random mistake as long as it doesn't turn into a frequent ...Read More...

Well... my T was her usual, awesome, wonderful, calm, even, self. I shared the letter with her, though I had her read it, cause there was no way I'd have been able to read it to her without bawling. I do think writing the letter was rather cathartic, and it felt a little scary sharing it, but my T said it was actually very helpful for her to get a glimpse into where I actually am... whether I am willing to admit it or not. She was pretty pleased, actually, since it was the first time I...Read More...

No one ever "got" me. I feel intensely; no one understood the pain.Read More...

YAKU, That's an interesting term. I'll have to look into it a little. You are probably right, she is really exhausted!!! LOL!!!Read More...

i just stumbled across this thread, as i was looking for a "Jones post". I was telling my husband about your cute link... "It's ok if your shoes aren't diong it." Our duaghter- both took ballet. Ok- now that I am here, i guess I should comment on the topic, hmmm... Conflict in our house- meant run for cover, duck, hide...he is home. He was the source of conflict, and he (my father) did not tolerate conflict unless he was causing it. Run was always my m. o. but I am learning that conflict...Read More...

Oh Hoosier, I don't know what to say except that I am so sorry. Finding that picture had to be incredibly painful and then to learn that his obit never mentioned his previous family to boot. You didn't even know he died? BIG HUGS, LieseRead More...

that really made me giggle!!! how cute and silly! thanks for sharing. janeRead More...

I'm very glad bee, that you didn't read if it was triggering material. I needed to delete since I trigger myself by posting about stuff like that! I'm sorry I had to take it down.. go gently now, and stay safe... hugs, BeebsRead More...

Hi AG. Thanks. From reading the excerpt from this book it sounds very interesting and look forward to reading it. Thanks again.Read More...

((( Liese )))- So rapt for you. Glad it worked out super duper well. Your T is a keeper.Read More...